Hey All... So yeah I didn't right like for ages now but believe me.. I cant even live my own life in a stable way to be able to write here..
The time I have been away I finished my senior.. started my internship.. felt like the most useless person in the world.. acted for IT Marathon video.. and tried to cut myself..
Yeah the most mood shifter you have ever met.. I KNOW!!!.. but seriously I don't know what the hell is up with me!!.. I literally cant focus on any thing!!.. cant finish any work.. yes I will start then I will lose interest as fast as saying fast... I keep on forgetting very important things.. Like reeeeaaaally important...its a miracle that I still remember myself!!.. all these made me feel like I'm worthless... I'm extra to this world.. If I'm not around things can still work and probably will work better!!... I feel rejected by my own body.. like I don't really want to be trapped inside here anymore!!.. I want to break free..
but then I get that one notification in my phone.. that whatsapp message which makes consider these feelings a bit... that message which makes me think maybe im not that much of a worthless person after all.. That there might be at least one person who will be hurt if he/she knew what I was thinking of... Makes me think that facing him/her with that kind of thinking in my head can be actually more scary than cutting myself.. precious people exist in everyone's life no matter how much of a loser you are..
If you though that losing one love will make you live miserably for the end of your life.. well.. just look to your left.. you might see the real love who was sitting there all along.. putting a hand on your shoulder softly from the beginning of all that.. lost love can be found in a blink of an eye if you knew where to look in the first place..
This was just a friendly reminder that no one on earth deserve to be lost or forgotten.. since everyone have a value to someone who is just hiding on the corner.. Just give it time for them to come to you or try to go over the corner by yourself..
So everyone... "I Love You.. I Love Me.. I Love the World!!!".. say this out loud and proud if you ever felt lonely!!
Have a good Life everyone!!!! ^^
The time I have been away I finished my senior.. started my internship.. felt like the most useless person in the world.. acted for IT Marathon video.. and tried to cut myself..
Yeah the most mood shifter you have ever met.. I KNOW!!!.. but seriously I don't know what the hell is up with me!!.. I literally cant focus on any thing!!.. cant finish any work.. yes I will start then I will lose interest as fast as saying fast... I keep on forgetting very important things.. Like reeeeaaaally important...its a miracle that I still remember myself!!.. all these made me feel like I'm worthless... I'm extra to this world.. If I'm not around things can still work and probably will work better!!... I feel rejected by my own body.. like I don't really want to be trapped inside here anymore!!.. I want to break free..
but then I get that one notification in my phone.. that whatsapp message which makes consider these feelings a bit... that message which makes me think maybe im not that much of a worthless person after all.. That there might be at least one person who will be hurt if he/she knew what I was thinking of... Makes me think that facing him/her with that kind of thinking in my head can be actually more scary than cutting myself.. precious people exist in everyone's life no matter how much of a loser you are..
If you though that losing one love will make you live miserably for the end of your life.. well.. just look to your left.. you might see the real love who was sitting there all along.. putting a hand on your shoulder softly from the beginning of all that.. lost love can be found in a blink of an eye if you knew where to look in the first place..
This was just a friendly reminder that no one on earth deserve to be lost or forgotten.. since everyone have a value to someone who is just hiding on the corner.. Just give it time for them to come to you or try to go over the corner by yourself..
So everyone... "I Love You.. I Love Me.. I Love the World!!!".. say this out loud and proud if you ever felt lonely!!
Have a good Life everyone!!!! ^^