Hey ppl!!!^^
So this time I don't really know what I will talk about or what I will describe... if you didnt like what Im saying or felt its boring... tell me so..
You can say this post is just to lighten up my chest.. I feel like I have the world's responsibilities on my shoulder... and this semester is more F***** up that the last one>>>> sorry for the bad word but that what I feel...
Yeah I know that tons and tons of ppl talk behind my back... sometimes I deserve it i wont disagree on that... but to know that your loved one do that too you feel like you are left alone...
Im not saying that I dont like to be left alone.. that is what my life have been for more than 18 years and im fine with it... but when a rapid change happens and you like it.. you feel scared to go back to what your life was like...
Im a super emotional girl.. i may act that i dont care but little things affect me deeply... yes i forget about then very fast but a scar needs time to go where pain can be killed with a drug...
Just a justification on what I say normally>>> I have a very bad understandings of vocabularies and what ppl understand from what i say... PLEASE!!!! ASK ME EXACTLY WHAT I MEAN BEFORE YOU COME UP WITH YOUR OWN MEANING...
Since I came to know a lot of ppl I couldnt differentiate between which one to tell all my secrets and which to be "aware of">>> as in be careful from.. some of them are ready to turn my secrets into weapons against me... and this all is my fault for trusting them...
You may ask me who i mean but im telling you the truth... I still dont know who to trust and who to drop from my friends list... I love them all and I may continue to... but i will no longer talk to them as frequently..
For this time im trying my best to be what i like to be for real and try to find who will accept the "real" me... For you who dont know me personally you can say Im a person who likes to spend at least 2 hours with herself... Im not the kind of "Call you back"... and i rarely communicate or keep in touch..
For now on I will learn how to love myself and put "me" before other ppl just to know who will love me... cause as they say "Love yourself before asking for love"... I will never know what true caring means if I didnt care about myself...
So if you find me wierd or something... now you know why... its just my true self is coming out of its shell... i trapped it for way too long...
sorry for making you read this but... I have no other place... thanks and LOVE YA!!^^
So this time I don't really know what I will talk about or what I will describe... if you didnt like what Im saying or felt its boring... tell me so..
You can say this post is just to lighten up my chest.. I feel like I have the world's responsibilities on my shoulder... and this semester is more F***** up that the last one>>>> sorry for the bad word but that what I feel...
Yeah I know that tons and tons of ppl talk behind my back... sometimes I deserve it i wont disagree on that... but to know that your loved one do that too you feel like you are left alone...
Im not saying that I dont like to be left alone.. that is what my life have been for more than 18 years and im fine with it... but when a rapid change happens and you like it.. you feel scared to go back to what your life was like...
Im a super emotional girl.. i may act that i dont care but little things affect me deeply... yes i forget about then very fast but a scar needs time to go where pain can be killed with a drug...
Just a justification on what I say normally>>> I have a very bad understandings of vocabularies and what ppl understand from what i say... PLEASE!!!! ASK ME EXACTLY WHAT I MEAN BEFORE YOU COME UP WITH YOUR OWN MEANING...
Since I came to know a lot of ppl I couldnt differentiate between which one to tell all my secrets and which to be "aware of">>> as in be careful from.. some of them are ready to turn my secrets into weapons against me... and this all is my fault for trusting them...
You may ask me who i mean but im telling you the truth... I still dont know who to trust and who to drop from my friends list... I love them all and I may continue to... but i will no longer talk to them as frequently..
For this time im trying my best to be what i like to be for real and try to find who will accept the "real" me... For you who dont know me personally you can say Im a person who likes to spend at least 2 hours with herself... Im not the kind of "Call you back"... and i rarely communicate or keep in touch..
For now on I will learn how to love myself and put "me" before other ppl just to know who will love me... cause as they say "Love yourself before asking for love"... I will never know what true caring means if I didnt care about myself...
So if you find me wierd or something... now you know why... its just my true self is coming out of its shell... i trapped it for way too long...
sorry for making you read this but... I have no other place... thanks and LOVE YA!!^^