A thorn in my heart.. a burn in my mind... I look around for help.. then I hold it back.. I want to suffer alone rather than making you feel sad.. I prefer to drown in my own tears than to pull you from your happy time.. I act tough.. I laugh hard.. I smile brightly.. trying to make the shadows turn into happy clouds.. but they are darker than I thought.. they created even a bigger storm.. they said its better to fight fire with fire sometimes but the fire I used was immortal.. the harder I try to run the faster it eats my trails.. it's not that I don't want look back.. the truth is I can never look back.. the moment I turn the fire will catch up and eat me.. but running carelessly didn't allow me to realize I was heading to a cliff.. now my only hope is the road would be long enough to at least allow me to see you once again.. shading tears of pearls.. running away like the wind.. and all I have in my mind is a picture of you.. an echo of your voice that can never be erased.. I see a ghostly figure of you along the way to my end.. even though I know I will never continue to be in the same world as you.. I'm still happy by the fact that your memory is what I can take with me.. next time your lips incounter the rain drops.. be sure that its my final kiss I could give you before I go.. I will always love you